We are nearing the last month of the year. I love this time as November is when I start looking at my achievements and life path before the new year. I am focusing on completing projects, closing some chapters in my life and opening the doors for the new to enter. Deep. Painful. Exciting. Soul satisfying. Meaningful.
This time it is my book that is nearing completion. Part of finishing my first draft was to gain an overview of the Heart Project and the scope of my book but I gained so much more than a finished first draft. I learnt about a whole new world- the world of transformation, which we all crave and dread at the same time because it comes with change and it requires fierce work-questioning, honesty and a nosedive into the unprocessed reality of our life. Writing my book has helped me tremendously to understand transformation.
I now have a slight glimpse that it is the path of the heart. Much, if not all, of transformation is about self-acceptance. It is about opening our hearts to things that we have been scared of and inch forward with an openness, a bit of guts, and not knowing where we land! Agh, I know! It is really being outside of your comfort zone but you know, they say, that is where life begins! Just saying…
This inching forward, in return, creates a tender energy and it is uncomfortable, frustrating and a lonely place. No denying that. But transformation is about that- to shed what we carry as distilled, intellectual wisdom and live it in our life! We all have smart ideas about how we want to live our life but how many of us are actually doing it?
Transformation does not have a result; it is the process itself that is the result. At times, it feels like you are giving up something and miraculously things happen, life moves and brings you what you wanted, often actually better than what you wanted. At times it feels like you are pushing life so hard that your sheer exhaustion is killing your spirit and ability to be grateful, see beauty in little things or feel like a human being! (You know this feeling, too?). Other times yet it feels like you are walking in a dark jungle. Or oftentimes it is slow brewing. Or a gentle ride. Perhaps a chaotic swirl of events.
How does transformation feel for you?
Transformation creates holes in our life. We lose things, people and often ourselves but rather than seeing it as a failure, I believe we are called forth to fill it up with better things and more meaning and do it more consciously and self-aware because transformation is about becoming deeper, more self-aware and conscious of every moment we show up in life. How we show up will determine how we transform ourselves! Transformation is an open, empty field of possible states in our human consciousness. It is also a sweet anticipation of the unknown and it comes with no handbook, I am afraid. It is rooted in the knowledge of the heart that it will all work out the best possible way and we need to trust this.
When we can embrace this, real transformation can happen.
I would love to hear your experiences of transformation! Get in touch!